Unbearable Pain: My Fight Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, like electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically start with intense discomfort around a single eye that persists for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

Official guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Alexander Mendez
Alexander Mendez

A seasoned journalist with over a decade of experience covering international affairs and cultural trends across Europe and Asia.